"Lil' 5"

Everyone and their mother is heading down to Bloomington and Indiana University to experience the famous Lil' 5 bike race this weekend. If it seems odd that everyone is heading down to experience a bicycle race do not be confused-all the college kids are heading down to revel in the infamous part of Lil'5: parties.

Lil' 5 is a grand excuse to get belligerently drunk and party during the week-long bike race. It is a way to blow off steam before Hell Week and final exams for college students all over Indiana.

If I sound cynical, forgive me, for I am not able to attend this year. I have too much to do and need to concentrate on my coursework (especially J261). So if you sense a bitter undertone in this post, you will know why.

Winding Down Semester

The semester is winding down and I am beginning to dread the end of summer. While I am happy to be almost done with the stress of papers, exams, and homework, i am very sad to part with my friends for the summer.

Ball State has given me better friends then I could have ever imagined. I have made connections with so many people, and they all live far away from each other.

Luckily, the three months for summer will go by fast and I will get to be reunited with my friends once again next semester!

Indiana Weather

Weather is on my mind today. I loved this week's weather, it was very warm and sunny. Despite the pollen that turns my eyes fire-engine red, I was extremely content with my April Indiana weather. However, as the saying goes,if you don't like the weather in Indiana today, wait until tomorrow. I liked the weather today; however, and am not happy about the changes that are taking place.

When I woke up early this morning, the weather was amazing and I could wear a dress and be comfortable. Three hours later, and the temperature has dropped and dark rain clouds are littering the sky. I find this extremely annoying because I was planning on attending the Ball State baseball game this afternoon at three. Indiana weather, knock it off and stay consistently warm.

Tragic Ham and Purpose

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Tragic Ham and Purpose

Sometimes it is hard just to breathe,

Life comes at you so fast and the memories

Of happy times rob you of emotion in reflections.

Sometimes I believe I’ve used up all my happy moments,

Facing a lifetime of every other emotion,

Can one be empathetic to my predicament?

Or is loneliness another emotion I am forced to act out,

Day by day.

Day by day, morning fizzling into a gloomy lunch of week-old ham,

How lucky is that ham,

That it may have a purpose, even if the purpose is tragic.

And is it ironic that I munch this ham in a gleeful kitchen,

Streaks of sunlight tracing my own purposeless body?

Hunched over a table, striped with age and walnut finish.

This beautiful sunlight that gives so much joy.

Is joy the same as happiness?

If not, than I may have a positive emotion yet,

For joy strikes us with momentary contentment,

A rare occurrence that would make even the worst emotion

More bearable.

Bearable is all we need to be,

Taking each life event, and soaking it in.

It’s possible to deal with unforeseen events,

To bear every plague, misfortune, and turn of luck.

My ham sandwich knows nothing of those things.

It merely knows how to exist, and how to be used,

But then again, maybe I'm a ham sandwich too.

Somebody Has A Case of the Mondays

Tomorrow starts another week and I am not happy about it. Most Mondays, I am excited to be getting closer to summer. Usually, each Monday starts another busy but fun whirlwind of classes, friends, and homework.

However, I can tell tomorrow isn't going to be the usual happy Monday. We are getting closer to the end of the semester and all of my classes are picking up in workload and difficulty.

It's 11:14 p.m. on Sunday and I can already tell...I have a case of the Mondays.

Birthday :)

It is my birthday and I just got back home! I had a great weekend with my family and hometown friends. Even though I love Ball State, I did not want to come back to school today. Being home in warm weather reminded me of summer, and I wanted to hold on to the feeling for as long as possible. I filled out many applications in hopes of finding a second summer job ( I have worked at Chickfila for the past three years) and I'm hoping to hear back from a place soon! I need to make a lot of money this summer to help pay for books in the fall. Fingers crossed!